I cant fucking do this shit anymore. Im losing my mind.
The passed month I’ve had too many thoughts going through my head.
Idk what triggered me and at this point I’m probably not going to figure it out.
Its hard for me to focus on literally anything. I was driving for 20 minutes and getting lost in my own thoughts. Sad thing is, I don’t even know what my thoughts are.
Im just scared.
of my past..
of my future…
It doesn’t help that some individuals are recreating past memories. I’m being called anorexic again because i eat 1 thing a day sometimes.
I’m stressed. When I’m stressed, i can’t fucking eat.. calling me anorexic wont help anything except make it worse. I cant help if i don’t have an appetite. Its not like I’m forcing myself not to eat. When I’m hungry, I eat. When I’m not, I’m not going to force myself and make myself sick.
you don’t seem to understand that..
I’ve never learned how to cope with my problems.. All i know is how to hold them in and keep to myself, so that is what i do. I’ve been told to get over it, grow up, its not that big of a deal, etc.
whether it seems like a small deal to you, doesn’t mean its a small deal to me. you don’t know what I’ve been through.
i know that people have it worse that I do, and i know i shouldn’t feel so upset… but everyones entitled to their own emotions.
i need help.
i don’t want to have thoughts of taking pills again. i really really don’t… but they’re happening.
i wont let this beat me. I cant let this beat me.
I have a bright future ahead of me.
ill get through this.